不懂

我几乎每一天都把两个字挂嘴边——“不懂”
是，我承认我什么都不懂
迷迷糊糊就过了18年
如果你现在问起我，还记不记得某件事
我的答案有80%是不记得
这18年来，我不知道我的灵魂到底去了哪里
有些事我会记得很清楚
因为那些是我很认真去做
刻骨铭心
现在上了大学
我还是很依赖
我有学着让自己独立一些
但是感觉还是怪怪的
我觉得朋友就好像我的家人
如果没有了他们，
我想我会过得很惨
所以现在开始我都把大部分的时间跟朋友在一起
跟他们过时间很好，很充实
也不知道为什么
就是不想让自己后悔还有遗憾
如果下次有人问起你的大学生活怎么样
至少我可以回答我有一群好朋友
不像中学
问起我，我真的不懂
可是，
问题来了
不是每一个人都喜欢有一个人那么依赖他
不知道我的朋友会不会觉得我很烦
想到这个就很down
唉~

My sweet holidays are end.

I have attended to the orientation activities these days
Is quite busy and tired
I felt afraid because I didn't have any friends there
Fortunately, I met a secondary school friend there
hehe...
There was one thing made me felt mad is I got a "saman" on the first day of orientation
That's terrible!
And now I felt a bit nervous and stressful for my program--EH
It is quite difficult for me especially the practical
And the other thing is the MUET test
Should be score Band 3
haiz....
I hope I can past it because I want to graduate!
I already walked into a stress-world today...
Anyone want to pray with me??
I just can try my best in my future, try to improve my English too.
GAMBATEH!!